Officially Missing You

You're on my mind almost all the time...every single minute all I do is think of you 'cause deep inside in this heart of mine I have to go on wishing 'till its time.


You didn't know how I really feel right now, I write several poems a day just to keep myself busy and all the poem says how much I want to be with you. Now that you're leaving, going away for quite sometime I know in my heart that I will miss you much greater than I miss you now... 


So long to the only man I love with all my heart. To the man I need to be with.

It is my dream to become a DJ...at least once in my lifetime. So I tried my best to acquire communication and speaking skills, which now I'm quite confident of. Being able to communicate and be understood in a different language is a gift.


But right now, all I really want to understand is my heart :)

Thank You

I never had the chance to say thank you...for changing my whole life. For giving me a chance to love for the last time. In this world where I thought love can never be found again. I built my walls strong and tall, so that when these kind of emotions come knocking I can hide away. Then you came and it came crashing. I shouldn't have met you, but thank you anyway.


Thank you for making me smile without a reason, for making me soar again when gravity is pulling strong. Thank you for making me hold on when the rest of the world is screaming for me to let go. Thank you for believing in me when I can't believe in myself. Thank you for offering me a hand when I don't need it. Maybe I thought I don't need it because I was busy pretending I'm strong. Sometimes I want to crash into your arms and  let the world turn like it always do. You have been a sanctuary, and oh I don't ever want to lose you. I want to be always around you.


Thank you...I'm dying to say your name again. But I think you will remain a mystery to the world. They see me beautiful and strong and witty, but they never knew there was you behind all that I am. You don't now that too...but know that I really really am thankful for you. For all that you do. For all that you say. And for all that was never spoken.


Thank you for making me feel this important to you...and I would do anything now just to let you know that I am so thankful of you coming into my life...Thank you.

Wolverine

I can perfectly remember the first time I saw you, the first emotions that went through me. I wanted to protect you, to watch you from afar and wonder why my walls are tumbling down.
It wasn't that long ago, and I can't believe that in one day so much can happen. My heart run away, my mind stopped thinking, my whole world turned upside down...it took me an effort to return to normal. Or so I thought I'm back to normal...
I didn't know I was loving you with every "hi, how are you?"
I didn't know you were getting close to my heart with every "goodnight" and "take care" and all else that was said and done.


I thought being close to you will erase everything, I thought making you mine will wash away the emotions, will make the desire to get close to you go away...but here I am in a web that is supposed to trap you away from me. Here I am tangled and mystified by my own wishes and hopes.


I thought it was a dark desire, I thought its a once in a lifetime craving...I thought its like a devil that I can just face and prove that I'm still gonna win in the end...


I love you... I just can't tell you how much, I'm scared of what you will say. I can't let this go. Even if you aren't mine, even if you don't give a damn...I need you. I want you. I love you.


I love you.