An Inch Above Earth

I don't know what I'm feeling, but everything I feel is murky. The weather is sunny, the people are friendly, but why inside I'm so lonely? Is this because he is not around? Is it because he is out of reach? I know Who I serve, I know to Whom I belong. Today is not a good day at all to talk about how wonderful life is...

I can't feel the ground and my direction is nowhere. Sometimes life is such a blur and I'm one inch above the earth. The dirt, the pain, the hurt and the tears its on my shoulders. I can't breathe, I can't die...I'm so confuse why oh why?!

Crying out to my Master, calling out His name over and over...There is no other name on earth that can lift me up. No power can refresh my soul. Only in Your arms can I find rest, only with you I can feel so safe. In this world where I don't belong, save me Father I am yours and Yours alone.

Fallen Angel

I can hear the distant echoes of a guitar string, I can recall the light and the warmth of the sunless heaven but where did it all go? I can't reach the clouds now, when before it brushes my feet when I walk. And the spotless white fire that never fails day and night.


My dreams before were pictures of laughter and hope, of children running free and meadows of lush green grass. Now they are gray and cold and sordid...like a back door alley in a cold rainy day. 


So tired of all these...want to be coming home again. I fell so deep didn't know where was I? The cold concrete and the criticizing eyes, the biting wind and the awful noise...where am I? Is this the world?


Danger in every footstep, fear in every turn, pain in each heart that passes by. God I didn't know, what are to do now? Send me Your light to follow, Your road to walk on, for though it is hard my heart is willing to be Yours...completely.

Dark Brown

I miss those brown eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
and after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your dark eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

Dark brown that's what i see
Your beautiful eyes when you look at me
and i miss everything about you
i can't believe its true...


i love you.

Officially Missing You

You're on my mind almost all the time...every single minute all I do is think of you 'cause deep inside in this heart of mine I have to go on wishing 'till its time.


You didn't know how I really feel right now, I write several poems a day just to keep myself busy and all the poem says how much I want to be with you. Now that you're leaving, going away for quite sometime I know in my heart that I will miss you much greater than I miss you now... 


So long to the only man I love with all my heart. To the man I need to be with.

It is my dream to become a DJ...at least once in my lifetime. So I tried my best to acquire communication and speaking skills, which now I'm quite confident of. Being able to communicate and be understood in a different language is a gift.


But right now, all I really want to understand is my heart :)

Thank You

I never had the chance to say thank you...for changing my whole life. For giving me a chance to love for the last time. In this world where I thought love can never be found again. I built my walls strong and tall, so that when these kind of emotions come knocking I can hide away. Then you came and it came crashing. I shouldn't have met you, but thank you anyway.


Thank you for making me smile without a reason, for making me soar again when gravity is pulling strong. Thank you for making me hold on when the rest of the world is screaming for me to let go. Thank you for believing in me when I can't believe in myself. Thank you for offering me a hand when I don't need it. Maybe I thought I don't need it because I was busy pretending I'm strong. Sometimes I want to crash into your arms and  let the world turn like it always do. You have been a sanctuary, and oh I don't ever want to lose you. I want to be always around you.


Thank you...I'm dying to say your name again. But I think you will remain a mystery to the world. They see me beautiful and strong and witty, but they never knew there was you behind all that I am. You don't now that too...but know that I really really am thankful for you. For all that you do. For all that you say. And for all that was never spoken.


Thank you for making me feel this important to you...and I would do anything now just to let you know that I am so thankful of you coming into my life...Thank you.

Wolverine

I can perfectly remember the first time I saw you, the first emotions that went through me. I wanted to protect you, to watch you from afar and wonder why my walls are tumbling down.
It wasn't that long ago, and I can't believe that in one day so much can happen. My heart run away, my mind stopped thinking, my whole world turned upside down...it took me an effort to return to normal. Or so I thought I'm back to normal...
I didn't know I was loving you with every "hi, how are you?"
I didn't know you were getting close to my heart with every "goodnight" and "take care" and all else that was said and done.


I thought being close to you will erase everything, I thought making you mine will wash away the emotions, will make the desire to get close to you go away...but here I am in a web that is supposed to trap you away from me. Here I am tangled and mystified by my own wishes and hopes.


I thought it was a dark desire, I thought its a once in a lifetime craving...I thought its like a devil that I can just face and prove that I'm still gonna win in the end...


I love you... I just can't tell you how much, I'm scared of what you will say. I can't let this go. Even if you aren't mine, even if you don't give a damn...I need you. I want you. I love you.


I love you.